Bonus Round!

It would almost sound like I was lucky. My luck doesn't seem to equal the easy way though. Two weeks ago my surgeon who does all these chemoembolization informed me he wants to do another one of these things. We are headed out today to get this one done tomorrow. I am super extra hoping really hard (how many descriptive words can I use here?) that this will be the last one, and it is effective and we can move to the next phase of treatment. From what I have gathered there is another vessel that the surgeon wants to treat from. He did not really tell us his plans when we saw him after the last surgery so I was not able to ask questions that I still have. That was a bit disappointing from them. This is another one of those times where we have learned from experience. Feels like we gain too much in this area. Ah well.

I was trying to think of what else is going on. Not much else unless you count my advanced course in learning patience and trust. Perhaps Jesus is teaching me at a doctorate level now? Maybe that is a hopefulness on my part that I have even reached a higher level of understanding or learning. :) It would be false to say that I don't have my doubts or worries, but I certainly don't want those things to weigh in at a higher rate. So patience and trust it is to the best of my imperfect ability. This route was planned before I was born, I was made up in a way to have cancer, and then to be able to deal with the journey.

Thank goodness they let me work some. It is such a pleasure to let my mind rest on menial work tasks rather than think on cancer and how that effects my life spiritually or others lives.

Wow, I didn't mean for this to end up all thoughts and feelings, but when you are knee deep with this cancer mess, or waist deep, (who knows?) you certainly reflect and contemplate many things. Much that you thought was important and priority is stripped away, and you are left with basic priorities. Spouse, family, health. Who cares about money, job, mortgage, leaky basement, termites, that can all be annoying and tough but all replaceable.

Ok, that is certianly enough of the rambling mess now. I am out of here today, the emobolization is tomorrow at 9:30. If you pray, I humbly ask you to mention me in your prayers.