It doesn't seem like I get the opportunity to report good news much, but this time good news. On Monday when I was at the CTCA for the third chemoembolization they did an MRI of the abdomen and decided, no embolization because they had done a good job. I am now able to go back to the oncologist for the next phase of the treatment. I was very relieved not to have to do the embolization again. Bleh! I am still very relieved that the test had good results. It felt like we were in a rut of bad news this year so it was nice to have that broken. Plus there were some things which were worrying me before we went out that I thought might point to more bad news, but it turns out I was worrying for nothing.
So here is where I am now, I have an appointment for a PET and an appointment with the oncologist next Thursday and Friday. I am hoping to get a big dose of chemo then. :) I sort of feel blah these days but I have learned that is because the lymph system is congested, don't read that as cancer, read that as congested. The liver has been through a lot and I think all the garbage from the cancer buisness taxed out the lymphs which is making me feel not great, but I will take it. Good results, the body working to get everything back to normal, and the doctor not really seeing any issue with any chemo that is non-toxic to the liver (which is what I was on before), I am in a git-er-done mood. I am as excited as a person should be hoping to get into a chemo treatment.
Thanks for all your prayers, I am sure that Jesus lent me some grace to not even have to go through the surgery, and then bring good news. None of that was anything I was praying or hoping for at this point, so that was a nice encouragement to my spirit.
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Bonus Round!
It would almost sound like I was lucky. My luck doesn't seem to equal the easy way though. Two weeks ago my surgeon who does all these chemoembolization informed me he wants to do another one of these things. We are headed out today to get this one done tomorrow. I am super extra hoping really hard (how many descriptive words can I use here?) that this will be the last one, and it is effective and we can move to the next phase of treatment. From what I have gathered there is another vessel that the surgeon wants to treat from. He did not really tell us his plans when we saw him after the last surgery so I was not able to ask questions that I still have. That was a bit disappointing from them. This is another one of those times where we have learned from experience. Feels like we gain too much in this area. Ah well.
I was trying to think of what else is going on. Not much else unless you count my advanced course in learning patience and trust. Perhaps Jesus is teaching me at a doctorate level now? Maybe that is a hopefulness on my part that I have even reached a higher level of understanding or learning. :) It would be false to say that I don't have my doubts or worries, but I certainly don't want those things to weigh in at a higher rate. So patience and trust it is to the best of my imperfect ability. This route was planned before I was born, I was made up in a way to have cancer, and then to be able to deal with the journey.
Thank goodness they let me work some. It is such a pleasure to let my mind rest on menial work tasks rather than think on cancer and how that effects my life spiritually or others lives.
Wow, I didn't mean for this to end up all thoughts and feelings, but when you are knee deep with this cancer mess, or waist deep, (who knows?) you certainly reflect and contemplate many things. Much that you thought was important and priority is stripped away, and you are left with basic priorities. Spouse, family, health. Who cares about money, job, mortgage, leaky basement, termites, that can all be annoying and tough but all replaceable.
Ok, that is certianly enough of the rambling mess now. I am out of here today, the emobolization is tomorrow at 9:30. If you pray, I humbly ask you to mention me in your prayers.
I was trying to think of what else is going on. Not much else unless you count my advanced course in learning patience and trust. Perhaps Jesus is teaching me at a doctorate level now? Maybe that is a hopefulness on my part that I have even reached a higher level of understanding or learning. :) It would be false to say that I don't have my doubts or worries, but I certainly don't want those things to weigh in at a higher rate. So patience and trust it is to the best of my imperfect ability. This route was planned before I was born, I was made up in a way to have cancer, and then to be able to deal with the journey.
Thank goodness they let me work some. It is such a pleasure to let my mind rest on menial work tasks rather than think on cancer and how that effects my life spiritually or others lives.
Wow, I didn't mean for this to end up all thoughts and feelings, but when you are knee deep with this cancer mess, or waist deep, (who knows?) you certainly reflect and contemplate many things. Much that you thought was important and priority is stripped away, and you are left with basic priorities. Spouse, family, health. Who cares about money, job, mortgage, leaky basement, termites, that can all be annoying and tough but all replaceable.
Ok, that is certianly enough of the rambling mess now. I am out of here today, the emobolization is tomorrow at 9:30. If you pray, I humbly ask you to mention me in your prayers.
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